Going back to my old blog.

I have an old blog that I like much better. Please join me there if you would like. 

http://tinassurrogatejournal.easyjournal.com/

A few things have changed in the last few weeks! OH let me tell you!!

Frist I am not working with the couple from Venice Beach any more.  We had a very uncomfortable parting of ways that left me looking like the bad person!!  For everyone that knows about my split with the couple….. I did nothing wrong and the lies that are going around about me are just that….. Lies! That couple has copies of my medical records so they know everything and that is all that needs to be said. 

Second I am now working with a single IF from Spain.  He is really nice and he is going to make a great dad.  We are hoping for a late October or early November transfer.  We talked to night for the first time and his english isnt very good but he is working on getting better.  I was hoping the I would be able to meet him for the frist time at our transfer but he told be that he wont have anytime off from work until around x-mas time then he will come and visit me and my family!

Oct 18, 2005 old post from old blog site

31 week belly shot

 

 After weeks of asking my doctor for a proper U/S we got one today!!  I am so utterly shocked at how good the babies are growing!! Here are the stats.
Baby A is 4# 8oz and is measuring at 32w4d
Baby B is 4# 10oz and is measuring at 32w6d
Baby C is 4# 5 oz and is measuring at 32w2d
If you are adding, I am at 31w 3d and carrying 13#7oz of babies!!  WOW No wonder my body wants to go in to labor.
I am also feeling a lot better about having a c-section with this pregnancy. After looking at the U/S today two of the babies are butt first breech and NO way could I deliver them vaginal!! I struggled a lot with the fact that I had to have a c-section. I almost felt cheated in a way. This will be the first c-section for me. I am still a little scared about the surgery part of it but I am sure that they will be able to give me something to relax during the c-section.

The count down has officially started!! It is so hard to believe that this journey is just about over. On Friday I come off the meds that I am on and the Doctor thinks that we will start contracting and then he will just decided to take the babies. So I could be delivering as soon as Saturday (maybe). After todays U/S the doctor isn’t worried about their weights, neither am I, and he thinks that they will do just fine in the NICU. I am crossing my fingers for them.

I will update ASAP if anything happens. Wish us luck, its almost time.

Oct 15, 2005 old post from old blog site

We had an U/S today and the babies are doing great. I don’t know weights for them the doctor hasn’t been measuring them because he says he isn’t concerned and there isn’t a reason to measure them. By him looking at them they “look” fine. I just don’t know how he can tell that they are fine by just looking at them for a few minutes on his U/S. This is one of the many reasons I don’t like this OB at all!!! I don’t feel that he is doing his job to the fullest. I have voiced my concerns with my IPs and they have said a few time to me when I voice my concerns is “what are we to do at this point?” Of course my response was “you need to stand up for your babies.” They have also told that they dont want to question him because they dont want what care I am getting to get any worse. Yes, at this point they agree some what that the OB isnt doing what he needs to do. I just feel like I am over advocating for these babies and after many times running into a wall, I have now decided that I just cant any more. My only take on the situation is that my IPs are international and maybe they just don’t understand that in the US when you don’t feel that you are getting the proper care you have choices and don’t have to except, IMO, crappy care!! There is just so much else to tell. I have tried many times to start at thread but every time I stop. I don’t know why though. I am just so unhappy with this OB I wish I was back home with my OB none of this would be happening. Since I am on a roll with this tread maybe I can get this out. I really feel like I need to tell this to someone else so I know that I am not losing it. Most of the time we don’t even get our weekly U/S because the doctor is too backed up or to tired to do them. I haven’t had a proper U/S since I left home 7 weeks ago. When I say “proper” I mean the ones that radiology does and it can take up to 3 hours. Yep, that is right, NO Proper U/S in 8 weeks, even with triplets. The U/S that I have had, and there haven’t had very many, are just to measure the fluid around the babies because of the med that we are on. It can decrease the fluid around the babies that is why the doctor measures it. Some weeks we don’t even this.
I have now been in the hospital now for 6 weeks and at first our situation was very critical but since I have done nothing but bed rest we are out of the danger zone. My cervix is closed, nice and long at more than 3 cm and I don’t have very many contractions so I don’t think that there is any need for me to be here OTHER than money. I am pretty sure that this OB is getting a good piece of money in the end. I got the first hospital bill and for less than 30 days the bill was $65,000. Now if you think about it by the time I am discharged I am sure the bill will be close to $150,000, which my insurance company will pay most of it. We have 80/20 insurance so my IPs will still have to pay a large portion but I can almost for sure say they the moto for keeping me in the hospital is monetary. If I am so critical to be in the hospital why in the world aren’t we getting a weekly U/S? That is the question I just cant get out of my head. I just don’t think that there is any reason why I can’t bed rest out of the hospital. I have brought this up to the OB and he can never give me an answer for why we are in the hospital. He just tells me you need to be here. Most of the time I cant get him to stay in the room long enough to answer my questions. As he is answering the one maybe two question I do get to ask him he is answering as he is walking out the door! It is so frustrating to say the least.
After talking so many time with my DH and some close friends and everyone tells me that I have stood up for the best interest of these babies and done my job the best I can and if after all of this my IPs still wont take my advice then I cant do anything else to help them out. At this point I am just in a mode to get to the end of this journey. I think that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. MAYBE!

Oct 7, 2005 old post from old blog site

Well Tuesdays are our usually U/S days but the doctor was really backed up so we didnt have a U/S this week. I think that we may have one on friday though. I guess we will see. Our doctor is very day by day.
Yesterday my blood pressure started to run a little on the high side. ie….150’s/high70’s so after not feeling well all day the doctor ordered some labs, everything came back fine but they are watching my B/P very close.
Today my B/P are still up ie….high150’s/low80’s but they are coming down if I am laying flat on my left side. They are now testing my urine twice a day to make sure that I am not spilling any protein. Yesterday my urine tested for trace protein and keytones. Todays test hasnt come back yet so I we dont know if I had any in it.
Since the food is so bad here at the hospital…… I am now starting to lose weight. I only lost 1 pound, but its now apparent that I am NOT getting enough to eat. This is even with my IPs bring me food everyday. We arent scheduled to have a full scan on the babies until next week so I can really say if this has effected the babies and their growth. I am crossing my fingers that they are taking what they need from me and this wont effect them. I am trying to order out a few times a week so I really get some good food, but its really hard when you only have a menu to look at and can step into the restaurant. I mean what if the restaurant has a pest problem. I am not going to want to eat there if it a “whole in the wall Kinda place”….KWIM? So far I have done pretty good with picking places to eat. The nurses are a great help with telling me “NO, that is a bad place OR YEAH, that is a great place” So far I have gained 26 pounds with this pregnancy and if you look at my last surrogacy with the twins I gained 38 pounds. I just feel like NO one is listening to me about how much I should be eating. Even the doctor isnt worried but I am NOW!!! Before, I wasnt but now I am!!!

Someone send a prayer my way that the babies are doing ok even though I am not getting enought to eat now.
On a side not….. I found my cell phone. I was in the lanudry and it ended up going to the outside facility that does the washing for the hospital and someone found it. The funny thing is they tried to use it!! As soon as I noticed it was gone I turned it off just in case and I am glad it did!! My outgoing call list was full of calls to international number and some number from this area. They even added some numbers to my phone book like they where going to keep it and use it. When I got my cell phone back I called the carrier to see if they made any calls even though I turned it off and they werent able to make any calls but they did try and turn the phone back on. YEP….That’s right they tried to say they were me and turn it back on. Of course it didnt work if they cant even tell them my full name. After that the flagged my account so it wouldnt happen again. When I called to hook it back up I had to answer all kind of question just verify that it was me.
 Some people!!!
I am just glad I have it back. I didnt want to have to buy another one.

Oct 3, 2005 old post from old blog site!

I am so happy to have made it to this point!! They have taken me off the med Indomethacin and have started me on a oral med that is usually taken in a shot form. I can spell it but it the one that they give just about everyone to stop preterm labor. It makes for shake really bad and I am having a hard time sleeping on it also. Since they have taken me off the indomethacin my contractions have really increased. This makes me a little worried but the doctor isnt so I guess its OK. I think yesterday, which was the frist full day off the old med, we had about 20 contractions all day. Today not that many but still a few.
Yesterday after I was done with breakfast one of my IPs came to bring me some snacks and he told me that he had been trying to call my cell phone all day and I didnt answer it. I was very shocked. We started to look around and sure enough it was missing. I called the nurse and told he it was gone and maybe it went to the kitchen with my breakfast dishes, so she called down and NO cell phone so…….it has grown legs and walked away!!!! I am so mad!! I called my cell phone carrier and turned it off but now I have to by another one!!! Since I am held up here its going to be 2 or more months before I can get out get another one. AND…..All my phone number are in there!! There are a lot of them that are only in my cell phone. I have bought a calling card off the internet so I will still be able to say in touch back home but darn…….. this cell phone thing has really got to me. I guess I am more mad that I have to by another cell phone and most of them arent cheap!! Oh well just one more thing I am going to have on my list of things to do when I get home!!

Sept 17, 2005 old post from old blog site

Hello everyone!
Well after a fairly uneventful pregnancy we are now hospitalized.  Here is the story…….

2 weeks ago (Sept 3rd) I started to have some contractions that I just could not get to go away.  I tried everything that I could think of……Drinking lots of water……laying down…….taking a nap……NOTHING worked!!  At the time I really started to notice the contracts, they were about 5 minutes apart.  They didnt really hurt but since I am carrying triplets I didn’t want to mess around.  I decided after about 3 hours of this I should call the doctor.  About 8pm I call and of course he told us to go to the hospital.  I was sure that he would stop what contractions I was having and send me home.  NOT!!!  When we got to the hospital my contractions were now 1 1/2 – 2 minutes apart.  I was so shocked!!  I was only really feeling them about every 5 – 10 minutes and they didn’t hurt at all.  My body was trying to go in to labor.  The nurses informed me that I would probably be staying at the hospital until delivery.  I wasn’t very happy to hear this at all since I was only 25 weeks I knew that I was going to be here 10 plus weeks.  I have never spent more than a week in the hospital and that was cause I was sick with an infection from surgery.  I knew being stuck in the hospital was going to be really hard on me since I was so far from home.  Even at this point I was missing my kids and my Husband.  After they determined that I was having contractions the nurses started to take steps to stop them.  First they started magnesium and OH BOY  that stuff is horrid!!!  With in minutes I started to feel very sleepy and sick.  I knew with in a few minutes I was going to be sick and yep there she blows!!!  I was so glad that the nurse was quick with that puke bucket!!! Then after they started the mag they gave me a shot of Trebutellen (sp).  This now was making me shake so hard that my teeth were chattering.   Finally after about 2 hours they were able to get this contractions to stop.  My doctor came in to see me about 12am and informed me that we would be staying at the hospital until delivery.  This we already knew because the nurses told us that this would probably be the case. 
The whole night I wasn’t able to sleep at all!!  I guess it was a combo of the being in the hospital and the mag.  The mag made me feel like I had the flu and I had the worst head ache. I feel like my head was going to pop at any minute.  About 9 am the mag started to make me have chest pains.  I told the nurse that what was happening and they told me it was normal and it would probably get worse and just to hang in there and my body would start getting use to the mag in about 48 hours after they started it.  At this point I was thinking “Get use to this, how in the hell could my body get use to this shit!”  About 8 pm the chest pains were just to much for me to handle.  I begged them to stop the mag!!!  The nurse that was my nurse that night knew that I was not faking it just so they would stop the mag but that I was having some major chest pains and my life could be in danger.  Mag can make you retain water and the first place you start to retain water is in you chest and this was just what they thought was happening.  After I figured out what they were thinking I really started to worry and this of course only made things worst!!  The nurse went to call the doctor and tell him that he should turn it off because of the symptoms I was having.  He decided this was the best plan.  The nurse turned it off and with in just a few minutes the chest pains went away!!!  I could breath again.  YES!!  After 1 hour the doctor ordered to start the mag again but at a lower dose.  I cant say that I was happy to hear this at all.  I was so scared that the chest pains would come back!  When the mag came back on I still could feel the side effects just not as bad.  Instead of having chest pains I started to feel other symptoms like the body aches.  I was happy to have the body aches over the chest pains any day.  I knew at this point I could start dealing with be stuck in the hospital for the next few months. 
When I talked to my husband he was shocked at how down and in pain I sounded.  He even told me to tell them to “turn the shit off!”  I tried to explain to him about the side effects but I didn’t even have the energy to do this.  We had a few thing going on at home and I couldn’t even listen to him tell me about the problems at home.  (Long story short…….we are looking for a new nanny cause my mom isn’t about to help out with the kids any more.)  I told my husband I cant deal with this right now you just need to take care of this stuff with out me.  I think at this point  he knew that the stuff that they were giving me was really hard on me and I really couldn’t deal with things at home.  In the end he was able to take care of thing without my help and for my husband this sometimes can be hard.  I think he depends on me more than he should.  I felt that the problem solving would be good for him anyway.  Over the next few days the side effects of the mag where much better and I hardly noticed them at all. 

On Tuesday the 6th  we had our first ultrasound since being admitted to the hospital.  I was very nervous to say the least.  I was worried that with all the contractions we had before they stopped them had done something to my cervix, like dilating or shorting.  The doctor first looked at the babies and then he looked at my cervix.  He determined that my cervix was very short, less than 1 cm and it was dilated 1-2 cm and baby A’s water bag was bulging threw the cervix.  The normally a cervix for a pregnant women is over 4 cm.  It usually stays that way until delivery time in a normal full term pregnancy.  After the ultrasound I told my intended parents that they need to realize that the babies were going to be born  A LOT sooner than we expected and they need to come to terms with this.  They both told me that they were starting to realize it and they were ok with what ever happened.  Since we were only 25 weeks and 4 days things didn’t look good for the babies.  If they were to be born now they only had about a 50/50 chance of survival.   After everything that my Ips have gone threw this was the last thing I was wanted to happen.  I wanted everything to go good for them all the way to the end. 

On Tuesday the 13th we had another ultrasound and this time the result were much more promising.  The babies now weigh almost 3 pounds which was way ahead of schedule.  At this point the average weight is about 2 pounds for triplets.  I was so glad that the growth was good.  If they are growing good now it will give them a little advantage if they are born early.  Now for the best news so far…… my cervix magically got longer.  It was now measuring at 2.5 cm.  I am still dilated about 1-2 cm but this hasn’t changed at all and NO change is good.   We will be having weekly ultrasounds on Tuesdays from now on.
 
I am stuck in bed full time now and I cant even leave my room.  They don’t even what me walking anywhere!  I cant even step foot out in the hall.  When I shower (when I am allowed), I have to use a shower chair.  I can have a shower Tuesdays and Saturdays and boy do I enjoy them!! 
The food suck here!!  I mean it’s just sad!!  Even the food at my high school was way better than this.  I am able to order take out when I want though.  I don’t have any diet restrictions at all so I do this a few times a week.  Since I am in a big city, you name the restaurant and they delivery.  I am thankful for this. 
I am having a hard time with fitting into any of my clothes anymore so I am glad that I can wear my PJ full time.  This is much more comfortable for me.
 
I am dealing OK with missing my family.  My husband sent me a package with some really nice stuff for me.  He sent me some more PJ, a card from my three year old, some candy, yum yum, and some of my favorite popcorn, double yum!!  I do have my times that I just cant deal with being away from my family and I have a private cry and this helps a little.  Last night I talked with my husband and he wasn’t home so I called his cell phone and he was out with some friends bowling and this made me wish that I could have been out with him and his friends having a good time but instead I was stuck in this hospital bed.  I had one of my private cry’s shortly after talking with him.  I got the feeling that he knew just how I felt, or at least I think he did. 

Today I have now been in the hospital exactly 2 weeks and the days are starting to slowly go by.  I just hope that the next few weeks start to go by just a little faster. 

Please keep me, my intended parents, and most importantly these babies in your prayers!!  We can use every extra prayer we can get!!

August 29, 2005 old post from old blog site

Our appt at the doctor appt went great!!  All of the babies are growing wonderful!!  Last ultrasound the weighted in at 1#10oz, 1#10oz and 1#11oz.  All of them are ahead of schedule with growth.  My blood pressure was up a little but I am sure that it was because we had to walk a little to get to the office, but by the end of the appt my blood presure was back to normal.  My cervix is still long at 3+cm but if we get to less than 2.5 cm we will be in the hospital.  I was hoping to avoid this as long as possibable.  I just know I will be more comfortable in the appt than in the hospital. 

I really miss my family so much.  I had this dream last night about my husband and I woke up crying!!  I have never had a dream like that before, it was so vivid and real!!  I woke up at about 4 am and if it was any later I would have called my husband just to hear his voice.  I also had a hard time stoping the tears!!  I was talking with my IPs and I am sure its just because I am away from home and the kids, but DARN that dream was all to real. 

Our next Doctor appt is on Sept 9th and since I have now settled in I will be updating more and more, since I have so much more time on my hands now. 

Please cross your fingers that I will be able to spend the holidays with my family.  I hope to be home by Thanksgiving.  HOPEFULLY!!

August 24, 2005 old post from old blog site

I am sorry that I havent updated sooner, in a minute you will understand why. 

Around 20 weeks we started having some small contractions.  No bid deal.  I went to the doctor just to get checked out and make sure everything was alright.  When we got to the doctor they did the normal stuff like test my pee and look at the babies by ultrasound.  These were things that they did at every appt. 
The babies looked wonderful.  They then looked at my cervix, it was starting to shorten a little and they thought the contraction that I had were to blame.  I requested a med to stop the contractions that I was having.  the put me on a med called nypedapine(sp).  Then they told me to go home and put myself in bed and dont get out unless I have to go to the bathroom and I was able to take a shower once a day.  After a few days the contractions that I was having were almost gone except one once in a while. 

Bedrest was really hard on my body and my family.  I so shock at how sore I was because I was stuck in bed all day.  Then there was my family.  Since I knew it would take a little while to get things in order to have someone come in and take care of the house and the kids it was going to be tough for a few days and it was.  My husband just isnt the best house keeper.   I knew that this was going to test me and the person I am.  OHHHH did it.   After a few days of nothing really getting done other than what my 13 year old could do, I knew that I need to work on something better for my family.  In my contract I am intiled to house keeping and childcare and I needed this NOW!!  I called the attorney to set this up now it was just a matter of finding someone to hire.  At the same time my Mom who is a nanny, her job was ending so this was perfect timing so she voluntered to help us out.  She came the next week and slowly my house started to come together and is still being worked on as I type. 

After I was put on bedrest My IPs and I deceided that we need to get me to LA sooner than later since we would be delivering there.  We then started to make plans for me travel to CA.  We then deceided that I would travel around 24 weeks.  This is the best time to travle and any later we may run into more problems.  I felt this was the best even though I would have to leave my family early than expected. 

I am now in CA with my IPs and the apartment is beautiful and the weather is warm.  We have a Doctor appt today and I will update after that.

21 week belly shot

June 29, 2005 old post from old blog site

I went to the doctor today because I was having a few contraction that I just wanted to get checked out. So I called and they got me in right away!! They did a ultrasound to check on the babies and look at cervical length. My cervix was very long at 5.5cm. I didnt even know that it could be that long!! My contractions that I was having were just because I did way to much this weekend. My family and I drove 6 hours to our family reunion. I didnt even want to go but I promised my DH that I would go because it was his side of the family and I havent really meet many of them. I guess I had fun but now that I am back from the doctor I really wonder if it was worth the trip to the family reunion. I really think that this is the last time I will be planning something really big until this pregnancy is over. It is now time to consentrate on gestating and my job at hand!!

At this point I feel really good but I have noticed that I am really starting to get worn out easier. I am sure this will only get worse! I gained 6 pounds in 3 weeks so we are up to 12 pound weight gain and I am measuring at 28 weeks. My B/P was great at 120/70!!  I am happy to see this!!

The U/S tech that did my U/S was so wonderful. She was really fun and made me laugh so hard that she had a hard time get some of the measurments that she needed. About half way into the U/S she ask if we knew what the babies were and of course we didnt. She said “lets find out!!!” OH I was so excited then.
So do you want to know what the babies are?
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Our next U/S and Doctors appt is still set for July 7th and I will update then.

15 week belly shot!